In the summer of 2005, had a series of experiences that led me to conclude that I was being summoned to work more closely with God energy. This idea was reinforced when I was struck by ground-stroke lightning while at an outdoor Pagan gathering. Fortunately, I was not seriously injured, but the experience was transformative. The following meditation occurred a few weeks later, as I sought to make sense of the experience.
Before meditation, I smudged my meditation area and myself with white sage, and called the guardians of the quarters. I don’t normally go through such elaborate steps for a meditation, but I felt I might be venturing into unknown territory, and I wanted to feel safe. As I invoked the quarters, the East appeared as a feathered guardian, a male figure with large wings… he didn't look too angel-like though. The South appeared as a bronze-armored warrior, bearing a shield and sword, which morphed into a pike when I objected to naked steel guarding me. The West appeared as a translucent, watery mermaid emerging from a still pond. The North appeared as Mother Earth Herself, Her head a mountain, Her shoulders the foothills, the trees and vegetation Her hair and skin. She rose Her head up and met my eyes, and I knew I was guarded on the North.
With sacred space established, I anointed my palms and chakras with a special blend of essential oils that I created specifically to aid meditation.
I noticed that I slipped easily into the deeper layers of trance. Perhaps because of the advance work I did setting up sacred space, I was already in a meditative state when I began my journey. I decided to visit one of my common meditation destinations: a sacred tower with access to all points on the Wheel of the Year, and gardens in each of the directions.
I began in the magickal work room at the top of my tower in my meditation chair in the center of the room. The light streaming down from the crystal skylight above was pure sunshine. I established my intention to deliberately seek to interact with the God energy. While I bathed in the golden sunlight, it ignited the atoms of my skin. I could literally feel the cells of my skin shining and sparkling in the light. When I turned my inner eye toward what was happening, I could see each particle of light interacting with each proton and electron of each atom of my body. The way they were interacting was like an enthusiastic dance. The sunlight was the energy of God, Lord of the Dance. The sunlight was dancing with my atoms, and I began to glow with their ecstatic dancing.
As the deeper layers of my skin interacted with the glowing layer, it also joined the dance. As such, the light sank deeper and deeper into my body until eventually every atom was dancing with sunlight. The physical boundaries of my body disappeared, and instead I was transformed into a glowing, spinning, dancing cloud of sunlight. My body was merely a denser ball of sunlight.
Then, at the center of this dense ball of sunlight, I opened my heart and let the sunlight enter there. Like a supernova, white energy burst from my heart and infused my glowing body with new energy. Now, my energy was spinning so rapidly that I felt diffuse, and I rose from my meditation chair in a cloud of light and dancing atoms and let myself spin and dance around the room.
I coalesced my glowing energy back into my former shape, descended from my tower, and entered my south garden. The fountain that graces the courtyard changes each time I visit, although the sacred spring that feeds it runs pure regardless of what shape the fountain takes. This time, the fountain appeared as a large stone fleur de lis, with a stream of water traveling up each of the three upturned petals. I drank deeply from the spring, feeling it cleanse and refresh my spirit.
Then, I simply stood in the courtyard, drinking in the nourishing light of the sun until my spirit glowed brightly with its energy. After a few refreshing moments, I sat on one of the nearby stone benches and waited. Immediately, from the bushes nearby, stepped my Lord of the Greenwood. Here is my God, the Antlered One, the Hunter, the Provider, the Protector, embodying the masculine energy at it's peak of strength.
He reached out his hand to me and I took it with my own. Immediately, an energy jolted from him into my body, straight to my heart. The energy was pure love, but electrifying, energizing, powerful. My heart shuddered and burst open with this surge of god-love energy, exciting my atoms to dance even faster in a complete frenzy of love… it was ecstatic love, energized love, god-love, as opposed to goddess-love which is deep, endless, soothing, supportive, and awe-inducing. This was a surge of passionate, transformative love, waking up my slumbering heart.
I reached both of my arms around His waist and He bent His head down to kiss my head as he embraced me in His loving arms. In that state, cradled and comforted, I left the garden.
I had been touched by God-Love, and returned transformed.
The journey ended.
~Flame RavenHawk
August 6, 2005